ive had a rough and violent childhood and since i was 7 ive felt these unnatural urges to cause harm to things...it started out with animals and progressed when i got older and now im feeling it towards people...and im scared that if i act on them ill be sent somewhere...ive noticed them become stronger when i was with my first girlfriend and when i told her she freaked out and dumped me...and im afraid to tell my friends cause i dont want them to flip out...please what am i becoming and what should i do?