Hey, I understand you must be going through such a difficult time at the moment so I really hope your as OK as you can be. I'm new in here so I don't really know like the posting etiquette or anything but I just read your post and really wanted to reply to it because I was in such a similar situation a few years ago. When I was 15 I got pregnant by my boyfriend at the time and it just seemed like the worst thing that could have ever happened to me. He was slightly older than me but we both knew that there was no way we were ready to be parents. I for one did not want to bring an unwanted baby into this world, when I became a mum I wanted it to be for the right reasons. So I had an abortion, and I can honestly say I've never ever regretted it. But the point I wanted to make really was that that choice was right for me, and you need to make whatever choice is right for you. I know it's easier said than done but try not to think about the 'politics' involved with abortion, what do you want to happen? I really truly believe you need to be 100% sure about your choice. I don't think I'm 'evil' at all, I think I was unlucky as I was using contraception at the time, and then made a responsible decision and one that was completely right for me. But its completely up to you, all I'd say is it's a huge thing to even start thinking about, and don't let anyone else make your decision for you. It's your body, no-one elses.
I really hope this helps even a tiny bit and good luck with everything. If you have anything you want to ask me then please feel free.
Sarah-Lou x

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