[[what are yours?]]

Its just not going good


1. Its not bad enough my hair is fucking ginger white and yellow blonde and looks a mess!! MY HEAD IS A SCAB. all of my scalp its itchy and making me sick.

2. Stupid noob ripping me off on ebay!!
I got a Ipod and was sooo happy and the accounts gone..it was my christmas present and now idk

3. My dad is going to end up in hospital..with mouth ulcers and its not fair because he shouldn't be there again.

4. My nans died...She was supposed to come at christmas. And her body is coming here on Tuesday I think And I am just so afraid.

5. My nose stud came out and I really loved it...I want it back but I know I probally wont get it done again :/

6. I have fell out with Natalie. I know I called her for all sorts but I miss her at the same time. & its horrible because she just isn't bothered.

7. I have no money I spent it all..and I haven't bought my mums christmas present...I have everybody elses and I'm panicking cause' I dunno what the hell I can do

8. I cant sleep. At all! And its annoying because I just am doing so many all nighters..eating more..etc..and I dont need to.

9. I HAVE NO LIFE. Just nothing seems to be going right at all..And its like what have I dont to make things just go so down hill? like all at once?

10. Some stupid twat who i know caught me when i was drunk and everything started giving me raw vodka..and everything I was telling him no..agess ago is going around saying we had sex..and his mate is saying he did too..And its not true!! I get people on msn saying so its like who has he told? I am just really sad. I talk my way outta of it..but its horrible.
And its horrible because I am like Stop telling people this.

and if your gonna say stop looking for sympathy..attention seeker..stop going on with yourself.
then no. dont read it.

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aww i'm highjacking your thread and doing my own boo!

1. no matter how good i am, i will never be able to do the cheerleading stuff the 90 pound freaks can do

2. my band audition is going to suck, because i just CAN'T physcially play that high.

3. I will never be a musician other musicians envy.

4. No matter how much I like cheerleading, my coach will always suck, and never know my true abilites.

5. I won't ever lose the big ass I have

6. I'm so self-concious and its ruining my life.

7. I will never understand politics, history, or government.

8. I'll never be able to go back in time, and see who else is out there.

9. I lost contact with so many friends.

10. Luke made me happy yesterday when i was feeling down, and I didn't think he would/could. I need at LEAST one positive



feel better michelle

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[i changed it so everybody can do it..get it out in the open heh]

And you too Mandy =]

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It's weird how your hair issue is first whereas your nan's death is fourth on the list. I know it's probably not meant to be in any particular order, but just the fact that something as minor as the colour of your hair pops into your head before the recent death of a loved one kind of irks me. Not trying to be rude, Michy.

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I did put it top..but I didn't want to feel like I was annoying you all with it..because I have a thread for it here, I have been going on about it on my xanga.. etc?

So I just left it there and wrote above it a few times so it blended in. =/
And Hair is top because I was in pain with a scab on my head.

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I'll do a couple too.


1. No matter what I'm doing or who/how many I'm with, I feel lonely. I feel bored. I have to be on some sort of high or drunk to be able to relate to anyone or feel that closeness. And even then the only thing relating us is being on the same drug or whatever and having the same feelings for those few hours.

2. I'm very selfish towards my mom and feel horrible. I sleep all day then when she gets home at around 7:30 at night after commuting for 2 hours and dead tired, I ask her straight away if she's got me a pack and ask for some money to go out with friends. I barely see her anymore. I don't do anything around the house either because I'm so goddamn lazy and only care about myself. It wasn't always like this. I dunno how to make it stop either.

3. I hate how dependent I am on one person. My whole world revolves around him. If he's not happy, I'm not happy. If he says some sort of comment that hurts me, even a pretty meaningless one, it ruins my entire day or next few days until I talk to him again and can feel better.

4. The school is annoying me, only allowing me to do one course with the special program I'm on when we discussed and agreed I'd be taking on 3 at a time. Bastards.


All I can think of right now. I like whining.

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Me too B'cause nobody really reads my posts so Its like I am not drawing too much attention and yet this feels better.

&& Chloe I feel bored all the time! Idk why its horrible. Even though I am surrounded by people I just feel wrong, empty.

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This is a bit of a sad thread. Hugs to all.

1. I just want the doctors to figure out what is wrong with me, its so scary and frustrating always being in hospital or at the doctors, and being on so many different medications and never getting any better and never getting any answers as to why any of this is happening to me.

2. I miss working. i miss having money. before i got so sick i had such a good life. sure i worked 45 - 52 hours a week but i had so many work mates, and i was really raking in the money, it was so great, but now i dont know if or when ill be able to go back

3. I miss my car. when i first got sick, i was just happy because at least i still had my car, and i could go places when i felt well enough, but now with the seizures and everything i've been banned from driving, and i have to rely on everyone to do things for me, and i just dont have that many people who care

4. I feel so alone. every day i do the same sort of things over and over. take endless amounts of painkillers and other medications, and sleep, and watch tv, i want to be able to do things, and eat without throwing up, and talk without being in serious pain. and i have to go through all this alone because my boyfriend works such long hours and my parents just dont want to come around and help me at all.

5. Im sick of my lazy flatmate, who quit his job after only a week and could get us all kicked out just because he isnt paying his share of the rent. All he ever does is sit around on his computer all day or play playstation and complain about how hungry he is. of course you're hungry you lazy little idiot, you quit your job and you dont have any money.

6. I used to be so strong, now whenever anything happens i burst into tears. I cry two or three times a day. the doctor said the medication may make me feel more emotional, but i cant handle it. even my boyfriend has commented on it, and i dont cry, i hate crying, its so weak.

7. I'm sick of being stabbed in the back by people that i trust and care about. is that really what "friendship" means to them? I'm not about to go around spreading bullshit about them, but they sure don't seem to be afraid to drag my name through the dirt. I haven't done anything. I wouldnt mind so much except they went and called my parents of all people and told them all the bullshit and now my parents have all but disowned me

Thats all i got

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I dont have a problem with caffine,
I have a problem without caffine!

James

I was going to do this, but mine seem pretty trivial compared to everyone else's. *hugsforall*

I suppose I can't stand the fact that I really have trouble telling people how I feel, and I wish I could be more open and confident around people. Or just less self-concious. That's all at the moment, really.

Oooh, and the fact that I've done amazingly badly in my mock exams. That's rubbish, too.

And next year I'm going to be moving away to university and all my friends are going to be really spread out. This one's bad because I never thought it would bother me before, but the more I become friends with people and the closer I get to them, the more I'm going to miss them horribly.

1. I hate that all my friends moved away, I've pretty much got nobody atm.

2. I wish I waited another year before accepting an apprenticeship at a job I hate.

3. I wish I was able to be closer to someone.

4. I hate struggling to cut.

Listing 10 things would be way too emo

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<3Becky

Indeed.

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1. I really hate myself for the fact that I can't stop doing something I keep promising myself I will do and no matter what I do I keep going back to it and being an idiot about it and pffft.

2. Stupid Richard Huish college; I hate everything about you.

Oh and:

3. I've lost one of my best friends to her stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid STUPID twat of a boyfriend who won't even let me spend time with her anymore because apparently anyone in the world is going to try and sleep with her, even though he's the one that slept with another girl. He's turned her into a female version of him and now everything in the world to them is about sex or how much weed they can get so they spend the rest of the time getting money off everyone else so they can go home. And he hits her loads and has temper tantrums if anyone ignores him. I can't wait until they split up.

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1. School is impossible, I'm finding it difficult and I'm not doing myself any favours.

2.If one thing/person annoys me, no matter how minor the thing is, I will blow up in somebodies face who doesn't deserve it, and I'm too uptight and stubborn to apologise.

3. I'm terrified of going into a new relationship but too selfish and inconsiderate to tell people straight and let them know my true feelings. I'd rather string them along and put off the huge surge of guilt for a while than get it over and done with.

4. I am shit.

1- I'm broke.
2- I must try harder at college, i have to stop forgetting that i'm not at uni yet.
3- I wish i was going to do a politics degree not psychology.

That's it folks!

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It can be anything, its what you hate nobody elses.

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THIS

TO THE MAX

FUCK YOU SAM, PAUL, ISAAC, HANS AND JIM

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Roses are red, Violets are blue. In Soviet Russia, POEM WRITES YOU

Xanthior - Gnome - Warlock - 70 <The Gauntlet>

1- i'm a nob head 99% of the time

2- i'm so lazy i cant even be arsed to do 10 things

Your not a Nob Head

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- I'm lacking in funds.
- I like someone I can't have *sigh*.
- Parents are fags
- Dislike my job
- Sick of all my kidney problems
- I miss Ciaran.

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Simply knowing you exist aint good enough for me, but asking for your telephone number seems highly inappropriate.
Seen as i cant, even say hi
When you walk by
And that time you shook my hand it felt so nice,
I swear i never felt this way about any other guy
And
I dont usually notice peoples eyes, but ........